Moment with Family

I've been so stressful lately. I'm glad that mom rang me up. Feel glad to talked to someone you trusted and loved. I'm so reluctant to stay in hostel now. Feel like fleeing away to somewhere with awesome scenery and great and sporty peoples! I had loss of appetite lately. I eat to give me energy throughout the day. I have no longer eating because of unsatisfied satiety center. I had early satiety and postprandial fullness. differential diagnosis? gastric carcinoma probably linitus plastica.

Mommy wants to go somewhere for vacation this weekend. She's been busy for other people and hardly have time for herself. Time for vacation. Malacca? No... I'm so sicked for traffic congestion in Malacca. enough of this crap in KL. Perhaps somewhere with beach? I didn't manage to go Teluk Cempedak for sea breeze with mcdonald sundae cone moment last weekend. Should have do it this weekend. 

I wanna go travel again. far far away from home. with my beloved one.

Mental and Physical Fatigue

I made myself a caffeine addict. As a consequence, I'm wide awake almost every single night. I staring blankly on my laptop screen. Deep inside my head, my hypothalamus and pituitary gland are dancing wildly. They are happily secreting endorphine. My mind ran wild. My heart racing fast. But my body were too weak to respond to the high endorphine level. I lied deadly on my bed, with long hours of blank stare and finally dozed off involuntarily. These cycles continue everyday. My happy little friends kept popping out on the surface of my face with creamy cheesy pus inside. And my hair kept falling off my scalp every single day. by the rate of hair loss like this, I bet I will be balded in no time. Sigh.

Fairy Tales stayed in my heart. I always believe in them. 

Anger Management

Do you know the ways to control your anger? Everyone gets angry on occasion. Overwhelming rage could damage one's physical and mental health. These are what I came across lately, a few ways to suppress or calm myself down:

1) Take a break as soon as you recognize that you are angry
-step away and don't ever talk to anyone as this could initiate unpleasant verbal insult.

2) Take a real deep breath

3) Go to "happy place"
-whatever place that could calm you down. focus on every objects in that place.

4) if the above doesn't really work, then try to think of some happy moments

5) talk to someone you trust

6)practice positive self-talking

7) try to see humour in what angered you

The above ways are just acute management of anger. I will share long term anger management in other day. GOOD NIGHT PEEPS! =)

Upside Down

I've been emotionally labile lately. I'm sorry for those who had been my victims. I knew I'm angry but my temper will be very very intense as compared to normal situation. I would not get angry for no reason. I should have sleep more lately. Maybe I  should consider early TAHBSO.

Miserable All Time

"Medical students are not even a bacteria as compared to houseman."

I came across these statement during my surgical posting. I'm not as ego as any surgeon do, however i'm not as ignorant as other people do. Sometimes, i found the way the healthcare workers talked to us was kind of harsh. Oh well, give me a break, didn't they learn communication skill since young? there are plenty of ways to talk to someone in a proper way. I'm sure everyone will willing to obey commands if the talking part was okay.

Well, let's talk about something else. How am I now after decades of time leaving my blogs aside? I'm been through the busiest and toughest postings ever which was paediatric and found that it was not that scary as the rumours said. However there are so much for me to learn yet. Im grateful to have Prof Wan and Dr NurShadia as my mentors.They taught me really alot. Poor brain the storage size is too small for all these great knowledges. PLEASE STAY WITH ME MEMORIES! Then goes the surgery. I can say I learnt and practice most of the procedures here. Practices made perfect. Now i don't feel fear while setting intravenous line; I learnt the way to comfort patient before setting in branula. seriously I had saw so many kinds of patients with varying reactions. They were just so adorable. Once in Primary Care Medicine, nurses told me, setting lines in elderly was very difficult. I do agreed, but we still have to learn as we will have to do ourselves later in life. The most difficult part in T&S was injecting topical analgesia. CBD is kinda toturing in elder women. ABG is really not easy too. peeps, practices made perfect. We can go through these.

I'm looking forward for EOP which were just around the corner. Paeds EOP and Surgery EOP. God Blessed Me please.