How would you react when you heard of the ugly rumours about yourself? What will you do when you realize you are an innocent victim and were dragged into a fight which was totally not relevant to you? What will you do to save your friendship? What will you do when you found the real ugly truth? Can everything back to normal as if nothing had happened before? How would you face all these? How would you solve these? Will you remained silent as what I'm doing now? Am I doing the right things? No one can tell me which is right and what can I do. No one. Only God will know what's right and what's wrong.
I know I'm very wrong for cursing someone I don't like. That's the only way to make me feel better. As for my almost broken friendship, I have once chose to ignore and avoid. I have lost my guts to confront the truth that I will be losing my friends, my precious 5 years friendship. I chose to ignore and acted as if nothing has happened. Only if I have clarified all my doubts and misunderstanding earlier; only if I have control my angers well; only if I have listened to every parties involved before I came to a conclusion, all these craps would not have happened.
I Blamed myself for not being wise,I Blame myself for not keeping my mind clear and I blaming myself for being a stubborn donkey all these while.
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| A starry night sky which I have been longed for. |
Thank God for refraining me doing things that I will regret soon or sooner.Thank you God for accept me again back into the family of Christ; Thank you God for keeping an eye on me; Thank you God for the guidance and every tasks given to me all these while. O Lord, my Father in Heaven, please continue to give me guidance and drive me away from the evils. In the name of Jesus, Amen.
