Emotional Friday Night~ Missing home

I wasn't able to go home a day ago, and ended up stuck in college, hospital. Mom and dad wasn't around. They have been went off to Port Dickson again but this time without us to disturb them. I'm glad that they enjoyed their sweet times there =)

Maybe I missed dad and mom too much. I  feel sad, lonely and missed home badly. I wandering around the hospital at night. but still ended up in the room eventually. Study group discussion postponed to the next day. Fortunately , my studygroup mates kinda of able to sense my sadness, they tried to ask me out for dinner at night. I turned them down. Reason: I'm the only girl in the group, so nyahhh~~~  I dont want my dear dear to worry <3

Another good studymate of mine invited me to practice short case right after the CPC class. We managed to clerk a case of transverse myelitis which has alot good neurological signs as well as a short case on a patient with severe hepatic encephalopathy. I need to brush up a bit on my physical examination skill and as well as my knowledge.

So I spent the rest of my friday night organizing my notes. I reckoned I should just do something more beneficial rather than sitting at a corner, feeling sad just because I can't see my parents for a day. =) I need to grow up . I'm no longer a baby girl. Physical appearance of mine is a strong evident that I'm grown up =p

P/S: That night I experienced the very first episode of vertigo, my vision blurred and everything seems spinning around me. It lasted for almost half an hour, and it was associated with nausea and vomiting and imbalance gait. I couldn't stand or walk still. I felt like I'm walking like a drunk lady. It was self-limiting. It was relieved by bed rest. I was thinking alot of differential of vertigo. Piggy man said I might have semicircular canal problems. I don't think it is due to my inner ear problems as I dont have any aural symptoms such as buzzing sound in my ears.Maybe it's just a vasovagal effect.

Thanks dear for spending the night talking to me, comforting me as well. "heart" you piggy man =D

Tension pneumothorax versus spontaneous pneomothorax

This is how I get a clearer picture on pneumothorax. All the best Winnie !!! Plan: Continuous self-motivation!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i-sZzZ4TMnY

Treatment of tension pneumothorax: needle decompression and proceed to immediate chest tube drainage with underwater seal chest drain. do it before ordering any chest x-ray.
How to know whether it's working: Gush of air coming out from the large gauge branula and patient's getting better: vital signs improved, particularly for hypotension. No longer breathless.

Crazy Night

Yesterday seemed to be a really crazy night for us. We bought beers and smuggled them into the hostel. Well we were not really smuggling them, cause there were no authorities keeping an eye on us , so it's kinda easy for us to bring them in.

Beers and cards are always the best combination. But we are bunch of "good" girls. We don't gamble. =p We played Truth or Dare for the card games.

So what had we really done in the room? I can say lotsa mindless, crazy but superfun thingy. Punishment like kisses on face, stuck your face on someone's else buttock, acting like a superstar, tickle someone else sensitive area, draw a deep cleavage on someone's chest, singing, jumping, showing off own's panty colour..and of course the truth like what's your favourite position on the bed etc etc. The alcohol may have some effect on me, I think I am just uncontrollable.

It's nice to have such small gathering once in a while. That 's the time we get to know how is each other doing. It's sad when we are so near to each other yet we seemed so far apart. I really appreciate this small gathering very much. Happy to know you all from the beginning. <3 <3 <3 Friends forever girls~

XOXO

P/S: I woke up late for class today!!!! And experiencing mild degree of hangover in class. I lied to lecturer that I almost fall asleep due to the lame presentation. In fact it is due to the hangover~ shhh... XD sorry mian jie =p

Oh Fat~

After one week of holiday, I really have to admit that I have gained weight. In view of my muffin top which do not disappear although my flatulence and diarrhoea had stopped.

My workout plan had become more intense than usual due to two reasons. First, I want to get rid of flabby arms and my muffin top. Second, I really enjoy the feel of muscle aching pain after the workout. And I have to watch my diet too.

Sometimes I do feel unhappy with the saying that I'm not eating at all. That's kinda hurt to hear that. That's my old way of keeping my weight. I keep looking for pros and cons of the plans that I'm having and make changes from time to time. I'm not having any eating disorder so far. So don't worry. By the way, I love food, that's why I have gained weight.

Oh, I got souvenirs from my besties~ I feel myself being loved~ Chocolates~ <3
And received a keychain from another friend as well. Although the key chain is kinda ugly but I still appreciate it~ <3

And for Mr Goh my dearie, he never fail to listen to my problems and try to relieve my sadness. Thank you so much for your efforts and advices. =) I really hope these family problems can solve in a much more better way. I will pray for my uncle's goodness. I really hope I can do something.

Awwwkay, lastly I want to fully utilize my time in orthopedic posting. So many good lecturers that keep us motivated. Love you guys!!! YOU GUYS ARE SO AWESOME <3 <3 <3


FAT WINNIE'S MONOLOGUE ~
XoXo

Official or non-official

That's the problem when a relationship get official. People talks behind you. They are either back-stabbing you, or tease you. Only true friends will support you in whatever circumstances.

And I'm truly tired of facing teases everyday.

I should have  putting things low. Low profile as possible.

I'm just tired...

Need a break from all these..

Leave me alone...

Saturday

Another typical Saturday. The only difference is the holiday is coming to an end. Vicious cycle of busy and hectic day is coming ahead.

I had been laying lazily on my bed, day-dreaming. What a waste of time.

So I decided to read of the novel that I had bought not long ago. <The same kind of different as me>. A very good novel indeed. I can't take my eyes of it. Highly recommended peep!

I did a few sets of workouts. Arghh hate to see my muffin top. and my loose arms. My arms turned out to be loose and ugly after 2- 3 days of illness. Mom said I'm probably loose too much of muscle proteins during these few days. My body weight remained the same as before. Never mind, I can get back to my previous shape back. It is just a time matter. 

My uncle paid a sudden visit yesterday. His parkinson's disease had gone worse. Particularly his motor function. He had difficulty in initiate his movement, typical shuffling gait, festinance, turning en-block, and he speaks very very slow. Everything had gone slow... fortunately, he had no apraxia, he still has good and intact memory. I'm quite upset with my cousin sisters and my aunt, they seemed pay no attention to their hubby as well as their dad. They don't even care if their father died. They took no responsibility at all.

How cruel they are. How can they be so ignorant to their loved one? Maybe they don't even love their own father. Maybe my aunt never love my uncle at the first place? This is Not right!!! I hope I can make them realize their mistakes.... But I can't .... :(

 

Little Sweet Outing with Him

He needs about 80 species of insect specimens for his project. He got to know there is a place selling all these kind of insect specimens. This place would be his savior to his little project. At least he won't have to waste his time and energy setting up traps for these insects.

We pushed off from home about noon. Both of us are a total moron to the routes to the place we were about to head. All we had were a phone GPS. I almost lost my temper while we were on the way to that place. My stupid phone kept running out of battery. And I had no idea what's wrong with Maxis 3G. It was kinda lame. We lost 3G connection when we were not even half of our journey. So damn scary.

We reached there at last. The whole journey took us about 30 minutes I guess. We went there, looked out for that shop lot. And we got to know that that shop had been closed for many years, after the owner passed away. OMG. That was so depressing to hear that. so disappointed too.

Since we have nothing else to do, we decided to go Batu Caves which was a stone throws away from our place. This can be considered as our first outing together. Kinda childish but I don't care I just like it so much! =D We conquered the long and high staircases in Batu Caves. I can say this place is so flooded with monkeys and pigeons besides tourists. Monkeys... I'm kinda phobia with them. I had been seeing my friend scratched and hurt by monkey when I was young. I saw them snatched passerby's handbag when I was young too. They are criminals~!!! Anyway I felt secure with a steel man beside me. awww~ <3

It wasn't our lucky day. It rained cat and dog eventually. We got to call it a day. Both of us were wet. He was worst. Imagine the rain water was dripping from everywhere of his body. We bought a shirt from a stall near the KTM station (as I didnt have any extra shirt with me) and we changed clothes in the car! What an adventurous and exciting day, isn't it? We had to walk with bare feet when we reached home too. Both of us were lucky as none of us got cold. God blessed us in every way He can. Thank God. Amen~ =)

P/s: I'm hoping for more adventurous outings with him <3 <3 <3 XOXO

2/11/2013 to 4/11/2013

Over the past 3 days, I had been following my family back to Sitiawan. The day that I have been anticipated the most. I planned a long list of to-do and to-eat. Too bad I contacted an anonymous viral infection and resulted in acute gastroenteritis.

 It started off with severe abdominal discomfort and flatulence. These were the early warning signs to the upcoming dreadful disease. I chose to be ignorant. the next two hours time, I was found to be trapped in the toilet, due to severe diarrhea. I couldn't recall how frequent I had been dashed into the toilet. Deep inside my heart, I was calling out for help. I thought I was going to die by the rate of the diarrhea and vomiting that I had been encountered. I thought I'm going to die of severe hypovolemic shock due to dehydration. I lost my appetite. I felt dizzy. I lost my strength. I can feel cold and my whole body was shivering in cold. I was slightly feverish. I forced myself to put up all my strength to act that I'm okay because he was there. I felt guilty as I was unable to accompany him throughout the trip. I was the one asked  him to join us for this trip. At least I must show him that I'm okay. I forced my smiles. :) 

I still remembered daddy quarreled with me. He was way too worried. He wanted to try whatever way that could cure my symptoms. He wanted me to drink coke. I'm still conscious and was able to judge the situation. I insisted my way and refused to drink coke as I didn't want my diarrhea to get worst. My conditions wasn't that stable at all. I can be fine now and became drowsy and weak in the next hour. I started to play tantrum eventually. I can't stand voices. I scolded my nieces for making noises. I got irritated easily. I wanted them to keep their doors shut because I didn't want my space invaded by cool air. I was cold.

That night, my mom was sleeping next to me. She was so worried. She slept with one of her hand on my forehead. She woke up every hour to check if I'm feverish. I told my mom to send me to the hospital if my conditions continue to deteriorate. I thinks God sent an angel to look after me that night and she was my mom. I got well the day after. Just occasional vomiting and the appetite not really coming back yet. 

The next two days, my mom still watching over my diets. No oily or spicy food. But I was too naughty. I drank chatime and tried nasi lemak. I ended up 5 times of diarrhea that night. 

Today I am superbly well. I will really take care of myself well starting from now. 

I heart you so much MOM!!!! <3 <3 <3