It's been a while since i last visit and update my blog. Things happened during this period of time, good and bad.

I passed my orthopedic posting smoothly and now in surgical posting. It's fun working with my bosses in surgery now. They are very encouraging. I gained lotsa of resuscitation experience during this posting. I know there's alot more to come!

As the time passed, I learn that there is no place as similar as home. Family bonding is very important. Distance is no longer an issue if the bonding is strong! I'm still learning...

I still cant get used to live alone in taiping.

I sincerely wish that I did not choose taiping at the first place. I should have choose somewhere near to my home.

And I do miss my boy very much! We haven't been seeing each other for quite some times!!! oh dear!

Orthopedic HO in Taiping

First night call, I thought it would be an easy one.
I plan to have a good night sleep after finish assisting in emergency OT.
Things just happened out of your expectations.
I never have the chance to sit down and rest.
Three admission from 0000-0700
two polytrauma cases and one kid with deep laceration cut that need T&S

I was basically lie dead on my bed once I finished my night call
Never think of repeating the same things again in any time sooner.
Too bad I'm having a whole week of night calls...

gotta keep alot of nescafe with me already!

Week 3 as a functioning HO

Reporting from Hospital Taiping.
Week 3 of orthopedic HO life.
the workload is out of expectation.
Sometimes my mind just stop thinking, i'm just turning blank in the middle of the day.
I'm just too tired.
However I'm truly grateful to have helpful colleagues and bosses.
They are my friends and my tutors at the same times.
People will never learn until they got hit on the ground.
that's my perception and I'm totally agree with these.

and truly, being a graduate from university malaya hold a great burden. everyone put a high expectation on us. and well I personally think we are doing better than them.

I got a commonly asked questions from my colleagues. "how do u maintain your relationship with your boyfriend?"

He came once or twice in a while, accompanied me for lunch or dinner.
We are still madly in love :)

I'm awaiting for next meet up with my family and my love one =)

Pre-Working Blue

I'm officially a government servant after attending the Program Transformasi Minda( PTM).
I still can't believe that I have to work as a houseman for real this time. No more helping doctors and professors. I'm all alone.
I used to think that life of a houseman is a total shit.
We are the bottom most in the hierarchy, and we have to do all the stuff and yet being scolded even if were doing it perfectly right.
My worries is getting worse when I heard of circulating rumors that my hospital has a rather high extension rate. Stress level beyond your expectation now.
I kept comforting myself and CBT myself that everything will be alright. Yes it will be okay eventually.
I got to get packing now.
Departing to my destined working place in a few hours time.
Bye home bye holiday and bye everyone.

放空

人啊，不是机器，无法没有一丝情感的做一样事。
被逼到一种境界时，什么事都无法理智的去想， it's a state of paralysis of analysis.
有时候遇到这种情况，就得歇一会。

我现在就得放下一切，好好歇息。

不晓得我是心累了，还是思想堵住了？

我要躺在广阔的草原，仰望着夜空，哼着我最爱的曲子，慢慢的数星星。

心事

转眼间，我的假期就到尾声了。
相信大家都忙着到处去游玩吧？我何尝不是呢？
不过，我倒是想陪一陪家人。
想到将要离乡背井到外出工作，眼泪就会不听使唤不停的在眼眶里打转。

假期里我遭遇了很多事物，有好有坏。当然也经历了一段情绪上的波折。我反思了很久，终于选择放下这些不愉快的遭遇，为何要伤心生气呢？ 有句名言 “生气是拿别人的过错来惩罚自己的蠢行”。我也相信征服了自己的悲观情绪便能征服世界上困难之事。

友情这回事，很难了解。

很多东西都很矛盾。

有些人就爱批评人，但是却在当事人面前可以当没一回事，人心难测。

好想念小时候，一切就是那么单纯。

A Thousand Years

What a beautiful song. Ain't it?

I never want to watch any movie from twilight series until one day, due to extreme boredom, I watched the whole <breaking dawn> movie. It was very impressive and I really love and adore the relationship between Edward and Bella. How I wished they were still loving each other in reality, don't you ever have the same thoughts as I do?

I wished we can have eternal life and our love can last forever .

对的人

爱
是当你对一个人表露最真实的一面
有些时候大家什么都不用说就知道对方心里要些什么
两个人都会很珍惜对方
大家都会为对方改变甚至让自己更进步
无需要迁就对方，而会接纳对方的习惯
愿意为对方改变坏习惯
相信对方
会商讨来解决问题

两个人心灵上的沟通固然重要，但是也不能少了激情
但是也不能以激情来维持一段感情，那是不会长久的
有多少人能那么幸运遇上对的人呢?
遇到了他，就不能轻易放手
得好好珍惜他

我，遇到了我的那个他
在对的时候遇到对的他，我真的是幸运中的幸运
他让我改变很多。
从性格狂野的我，变成了乖乖女，不过偶尔还是很顽皮啦，哈哈！
怪不得我老爸老妈那么喜欢他，谁叫他成功“驯服”了我爸妈的野蛮女儿。哈哈！

你看到了请不要自豪哦！

不管怎样，我还是要谢谢你哦！ <3

谢谢伯父伯母以及我爸妈一直以来的教诲！
好想念大家哦！

Welcoming the nephew

God blessed us with a new innocent life to our family-my nephew. He was born underweight. Everyone was worried. Mom was the one to calm us. We handled him like normal newborn but with extra cares. We fed with high calories formula milk. Nevertheless, the best milk is still the milk from the mother. This baby has to be stay strong and most importantly gain weight! He needs antibodies from mom's milk from his passive immunity against illnesses. Sister aware of this importance and began to eat well and drink well. She managed to produce thick whitish milk for her baby ;) initially the milk was just thin whitish fluid which looked so undernutrient. LOL!!!

Baby is approaching one month old now. I'm helping around with feeding baby, cleaning his asses, bringing him to sleep etc. It's not easy to take care of baby! You have to know his feeding pattern and be alert what's going on when he began to cry. I merely have a good night sleep when I was home. He woke up almost two- three times per day every night. I'm gonna keep this in record so I can ask something good as a return from my nephew in the future! hahahaha! I'm helping my mom with the meals plus house chores. Sister said i'm getting myself ready for marriage! how's ridiculous! but she maybe true~ =p

My new year resolutions: 

• I wished for everyone's well beings regardless of my family, friends or enemies!
• I want to be a better me in various aspects
• I will do what's right
• I'm not going to be bullied into silence anymore, I'm gonna voice out myself. (but I hope for minimal conflicts as well, I dont like to have more enemies, a LOW MAY KUAN is really making my life so miserable already, that BITCH)
• I will learn to put things down and analyse them before coming to a conclusion
• I'm gonna learn many many things as possible from various religions! 
• erhemm, I will learn to behave like a girl. I mean the politeness. Omg this is so difficult! 
• Pass MBBS!!!
• Appreciate my times with my family

I can't imagine my life without the support and cares from my beloved family. 

Credits to my boyfriend who taught me alot! Thanks! He taught me the right way to love myself and others =)
as well as the sweetest way to love him ^^ (blushed~* =p)

omg feel so diabetic. Gonna stop this! Yah Good night everyone ^^