Random Thoughts~

It's time for caffeine abuse again.

I become lethargic easily lately.

I need something to boost my spirit up again

Something... I have no idea what's that

Time to become a NERD ! GAMBATEH, I CAN DO THIS! 

P/S: I'm going back to my dearest hometown in two weeks time! Awww~ my born place, heart you <3 

Application for a Total Different Life?

My MOHH application has been pending for so long. Wrong details, scanned wrong documents, wrote the wrong names, bla bla bla... I almost lost my determination in applying the housemanship in Singapore. Plus and minus my parents' nag. I have been controlling my rage for the past few days. I listened to musics, and sleep most of the time.

Okay I have everything done eventually. Keep calm and be ready~

Next question in my mind would be, Am I ready to make a change in my life?

Puzzled, dilemma..

I'm going to wait and see.

Winnie, Please keep your mind clear~

Days with Him =)

I can hear my heart beating fast and my body temperature kept rising when his face was just an inch away from me. Hilarious experience we had. It took me so long to back to my own sane. I got a feeling that I'm living a teenage dream when I'm with him =p so young and energetic!

I just love being staying close to him. In the presence of family. He's like part of my family already. We laugh and share our joyful moment together.

Thanks to him, my brother and I managed to pay a sudden visit to my elder brother's car workshop. From that, we realized we have wrong perception on our brother for so long. My brother had been working under pressure lately and we, as his family members, never realize that and keep blaming him for everything. Now I realized, my brother are not losing his weight on any intention. =(

Always Trust Your Family Unconditionally.

Crappie Crappie !!!

You would never know what's awaiting for you at the other side if you never attempt.

Never never give up!

I keep searching for motivation lately. I am kind off lost track. Mood swung badly.

I received a whatsapp message from my beloved elective supervisor. He wanted to publish my work. Minor correction needed to be done. That's killing me. I don't know where to start from.Realizing my end of posting test which was around the corner and the minimal hours with my mentor I felt kinda nervous. These are just minor problems, but they were magnified when I'm having emotional instability. Poor thing. That's the down sides to be a girl/lady. ( I guess I'm qualified enough to call myself a lady)

I had watched GRAVITY starred by Sandra Bullock. It is a nice piece of movie. I'm not sure about others but I really like the whole movie, very motivating.

Incident I encountered during my call last night. A poor lady who encountered a failed marriage and faced another problem which is quite similar in her last marriage. Her boyfriend was cheating on her with her colleague. Love and Money~ always cause damage, destruction and death. She tried to kill herself. She wants to give up herself. she was tearful throughout the night. I hold her hand, caressed her head, told her everything would be fine soon. I prayed for her deep inside my heart, asking holy spirits to look after this poor lost soul. Will her boyfriend come back for her? Nobody knows. I just want her to stand up confidently again like Oprah Winfrey did!

MIMS workshop. We had a very fun interactive moments with pharmacy students! Especially it came to the moment that our team members need to give instruction to patient on the way to use vaginal pessary. Laughter and stupid jokes during our discussions. and occasionally a little arguments. I cherished these joyful moments alot! :)

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If I really have to formulate my whole problems this week, I would have said this:

-Presenting complaint: Dysphoric for the past 5 days associated with lost of appetite,lost of interest in social activities and changes in sleeping pattern. No past history of depression or manic episode.
-Predisposing factors: Premenstrual syndrome(PMS)
-Precipitating factors: Poor teamwork in presentation
-Perpetuating factors: New upcoming assignments and ongoing complaints on new buddy
-Protective Prognostic Factors: She used to be in hypomanic phase all the time, and she's still young, she has a good family and friends supports plus a caring boyfriend.
-Poor Prognostic Factors: undetected
-Provisional diagnosis: ???  Mood Swung secondary to PMS
-Plan: 1)seclusion.
          2)Minimize environmental stimuli and avoid any provocative members.
          3)Violent Caution!!!

I think I'm fine actually. (Poor insight? LOL)
Think positively, Holiday is coming soon~! :)
I'm counting down~

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

My Emotional Support and Mentor

I never know how to face the problems. I used to be ignorant or turned out to be irritable when I have to face a problem which was not really my problems.

I'm learning to see a problem from different aspects and tried not to be judgmental from the beginning until I know what's really going on.

I'm glad to know him. He gave good advice and ideas in solving my problems. And all the supports he gave all the while. Distance doesn't mean anything after all. It's all about our trust, cares and loves. Listen in the way that people loves to talk to you and speak in the way that people loves to listen to you. This is not only applicable to a relationship but in our social life I reckoned. And I really love the quote that he kept saying about it " 50% plus 50% equals to 100%".

There are so much things for me to improve in myself yet. I will work hard on these! and same to my lovely dubey mentor Mr G, it's never too late to start now. All the best! XOXO

I am totally agree with this! <3